searching for the answer
Authors Notes: This is a petrarchan sonnet, which is made of two stanzas, an octet and a sestet. The first four lines of the octet introduce the problem, and the next four lines further elaborate the problem. The sestet marks some form of resolution to the problem.
The rhyme scheme is ABBAABBA, CDDECE
In this poem, the narrator is working on overcoming self-loathing
the Worst of the worst—that’ll always be me.
i smile in hate, while blaming what’s sent.
the problem, I live, but i can’t prevent.
you think i kid; just wait, and you’ll see.
the tears, i lunge for, but they run and flee
my life is fine—but i feel discontent.
there's no reason for this, i’m Not worth the lament.
i search for the answers; “please stay,” i plea.
as much as i doubt it, the pain Will subside.
the Light perseveres, it will miss no one.
i can find the strength; i must no longer run.
Love awaits me; joy will abound.
i am not finished, can feel it inside.
do you hear that? no pain—the most Beautiful sound.