lay with me

my legs grow heavier as the day wears on,

my breath filled with trepidation as the night comes to a close.

my dreams, 

permeated by terror and anxiety.

I lie awake till sunrise,

the fatigue incomparable to the panic consuming my rest.

you lay with me anyway.

you find a way to sleep through my stirring.

your mouth whispers melodies that hush my screams.

your gaze washes over me,

my tears now a small part of the ocean in your arms.

the nape of my neck is warmed by your velvety hands.

your fingers trace routes that guide my mind to safety.

and through nights of endless running, still, you lay with me.

till now my slumber has isolated me,

my silence safer than the judging eyes that don’t understand.

And I don’t think you understand, 

but you want to.

you settle down next to me,

eager to learn about my world.

willfully exiting the safety of your dreams, still , you lay with me anyway.

I open my eyes to my second reality,

chilling winds now a warm breeze,

where swelled clouds release a grimaced to is now a softer sun.

I no longer feel you laying with me,

instead the shadow of your silhouette moves closer.

what once was unfamiliar is now a home for me and you.